How do you think others see you?
Broken, confused, afraid, closed. I was sick for a long time; it became a large part, if not all of my identity. I try to live in recovery, but people in my past still see me as sick. New acquaintances don’t know, and I don’t want them to, so I live a life of not being totally open to anyone.
How do you see yourself?
Manipulative, afraid, “wrong,” awkward, ugly, deformed.
How do you want to be seen?
Capable, kind. I don’t really want to be seen on any “deep” level or maybe I do – why else would I have a picture taken. I want people to see a woman who has her shit together.